Seriously, could the screams in my head get any louder? 
Can I be anymore confused about the things you said and the contradictions of actions?
Is it true that I have cried enough to fill the Atlantic Ocean and does the pain I feel run through me as I was hit be a run-a-way train?
Can the love I have be bigger than your love you confessed to me? And at what point you were going to be a man I simply say I change my mind?
If I choose to be angry, I deny that what I thought we had was prefect and if I refuse to see that you wasn’t for me…I continue to live in deceit.
When I say I don’t even want to try again…I lie …My lips long for you.
Seriously, could the images of you be any clearer?
Can my body crave your touches more?
It’s true when I close my eyes I smell the scent of you and I …simply wonder what should I do.
Can I call or even text is the question that comes up next and quickly I dismiss that thought with… for what?
So, I sit internally conflicted…wanting yet denying…truthful but lying…
Quietly I wait for these moments to pass…when…unbearable becomes tolerable.
When I say I don’t even want to try again…I lie…and cry…
Seriously, could this really be real? When my world exist without you…Yet and still my mind inadvertently uncovers memories of you,. I somehow spot your smile and see the wrinkles in corners of your eyes and hastily, reclaim my thoughts to a life without…you.
When I say I don’t even want to try again…I lie… and scream…Seriously!