shhhhhhhhhhh, should I tell him?

Okay, I’m sitting in bed so excited about this new blog. I’m in the middle of my thoughts of what I would like to share with you next…and I’m confronted with the fact that I haven’t told my man that I have this blog. A over whelming feeling came over me; and I’m reminded that I’m keeping a secret from my man. 

Please understand it’s not like I’ve never kept a secrets in past relationships. Consequently, at this point I’m like …Leola, you’re outta control. You can get through life without telling him every single thing.  The only thing is this simple secret is gnawing at me and I feel like he is going to see right through me and know I am keeping something from him.

Now don’t get me wrong. I’d be the first to admit that I started this blog with every intention of keeping it from him. Very excited about my next discussion…I thought…I’d love to write about unintelligent and insignificant women when he calls. Boy. That’s all I needed…. Before I knew it “I got a blog” flew right out of my mouth.

So, here I am with today’s blog and it’s not about stupid and trifling women. But it’s about me and why I can’t keep my mouth shut.  For the life of me I cannot understand why I’ve a need to tell him everything and why is it I can’t keep a simple none threatening secret?

I’m pissed. Because it’s not like I'm cheating or lying. Is this a normal process for couples, you know  “normal” couples? Or am I the only woman in the world that can’t keep a secret from her man? Honestly I now wonder what is wrong with me that I've to share everything with Him.

It's true, I  look forward to the times we can talk and so i can tell him everything I know. I mean that wasn’t told to my in confidence (for real, I dont tell him my friends business).  Anyways, for real y'all if I can’t tell him then who could I tell.  In contrast however, I wonder where did the feeling that I did somthing wrong come from..  Or do you feel like I was wrong for wanting to keep my little secret to myself & not share it with the love of my life?

I wanted to know if I’m crazy or something.  So I asked a few friends what they thought about secrets in relationships. They concluded that it’s not a good thing. They believed that healthy relationships require open communication and if someone feels they need to keep a secret they are most likly not in a healthy relationship.  One person had the nerve to state that secrets could be consider as glamorized lying by omission…The nerve of them! Right!

But for real y'all, I don’t want to be guilty of lying by omission…I just wanted to keep my secret because it was mines to keep. Not really cause I couldn’t even keep it.  Okay…enough about me…We determined that secrets unless you are surprising your mate with something special can only lead to deceit and hiding…and I don’t have to tell you all, that’s not good. 

So, with all that I've learned about holding secrets I still wanna know what others think. Do people keep secrets from their partners more then they like? If so what is the point of keeping a secret with the one you love if your intentions are not deceptive? Well, I’m going to continue to think about secrets and relationships and see what I come up with, you, you do the same and don’t forget to share your outcome with others right here on Leola ponders…..